Ever have one of those days where you just want to run away and wish everything would get better? Maybe you've had a few of these days. Lately I have been having A LOT of those days. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated with school. It's a constant thought that maybe I bit off more than I can chew. Taking 6 classes, 3 of them taking up a lot of my time with studying, and 3 that aren't too bad at all. I spoiled myself last semester with fairly easy classes and now I'm paying the price. I know if I put my mind to it I'll be able to get it done, but geez I am exhausted. The first thing I think about when I get home is how much longer before the kids bedtime, and it should not be that way. I don't want my children thinking mommy doesn't have time for them anymore. It is only temporary, and I'm going to school to give them a better life, but I miss all the time I had with them just a few short months ago.
Waking up in the morning wondering what the hell I'm going to wear is another reason I'm frustrated. Going to school in jeans and a sweatshirt just isn't cutting it anymore. I NEED to go shopping!!!
Reason 3, I miss my family really bad. It's been over a year since I've seen them and it's getting to the point of being homesick. Thankfully I have Curtis and the kids here to keep my mind off it because otherwise I would go insane. With my dad being sick, it takes everything in me not to jump in the car and go see him. This shouldn't be happening to a man who takes care of himself, and would go out of his way to help anyone. I'm mad about the whole thing. Everyday I ask myself WHY?
As you can see I'm not in a very good space right now and just needed to get it out. That's all for now because of course I have homework to do. No down time for this girl.
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About Me
- Kristen
- Being a mother of three wonderful children has made me want to do more with my life than just staying home cooking, cleaning, and playing around on the computer. Coming to this realization has pushed me to go back to school to further my education. I am currently starting my third semester for my Associates degree in Medical Office Administration. I enjoy waking up every day knowing I am doing something to make a better future for my family. My time at school has been nothing more than amazing and I have my wonderful friends to thank for that. My husband and children are my strength, and without their support and help I wouldn't have been able to do this. I have a little job that I do to bring in some pocket change. I love being able to spread the word about Scentsy! I had no idea what scentsy was until my friend introduced me to it, and now I can't get enough! To me it doesn't matter about how much money I'm making right now, but the feeling of knowing I am helping my family is awesome even if it's only a little bit.
I understand how you are feeling, because lately I feel like there isn't enough time in the day to do everything. But like you said it is only temporary and once it is done, you never have to do it again :) Just try and find a routine that works best for you so that you can spend time with the kids and Curtis, and do homework without overwhelming yourself.
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